I dont know how my feelings now. I just really dont know. I feel very lost... And i dont know how long could I bear all of this things. Theres so many bad, sad, worst and stressful things happened in my life right now. I just couldnt face all of this alone. I need you... I know i'll feel better if I pray, stories with Allah but i need someone else too. To support me, gives me strong, comfort me, make me happy and forget all of this even for awhile. But where you go?! Where are you when I need you right now?! Where have you been when I got all of this problems and dont know to who should I find at this time?! Where where where ?!!!! In my mind, right now, I just think you. You who the one can make me feel more better. Please I need some miracle to change all of this thinggy. A miracle that can make you text me, maybe tonight, tomorrow or some others days, i dont know but I hope it will happen. I just can hope for it. Back in time, you had make me a promises that you'll never leave me, you'll hear all my problems, you'll be by my side no matter what status we have at that time. Even after we break and you have another girl. But now where the proof? I need the promises now ! IN THIS TIME ! Plsss im hurt enough. Im not stonger anymore. I need youuuuuuuu...i miss you :'(

Out of My Reach

Today is the happiest day for me. First time I can spend time with him after our fight. And for the first time we walked together. And I feel overwhelmed when his friend told that he's do that thing caused me. There is little feeling of guilt but I feel appreciated :) But there are some regrets because I dig my adopted sista. The girl was as angry with unfollow me. Maybe because he saw the incident. Hm, I'm sorry. :/

Eternal Regret

How am I to say. I am sorry to have let him go. I left him because I thought I could not love him how I love another that. But I was wrong. Now I realize that I love him very much. But he already has someone else now. And he's happy with her. I'm happy for him but at the same time I feel very sad. I can not forget him. I still have high hopes on him. I hope so he have the same feelings for me. But apparently it's all just hope that I will not be so true. He will love her so. Now I had to endure when you see him with her ​​and put on all this happened.

Faham ye faham :)

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Masjid Yang Dibina Oleh Dua Manusia

Masjid atas dasar cinta. Bukan atas dasar air sepertimana Masjid Terapung itu. Tapi cinta. Tahu erti cinta ? Cinta adalah .. aahh kalau korang pernah rasa korang tahu lah. Haha. Pon taktahu kenapa tetiba nak post pasal benda ni. Hmhm, sukahati lah weh. Masjid cinta adalah sebuah perkahwinan. Separuh drpd kewajipan akan lengkap dengan perkahwinan. Dan syaitan akan menangis jika kita berkahwin muda, tetapi dia akan bersorak jika perkahwinan itu tidak dapat dikekalkan.

Sebelum berkahwin, kita akan terikat dengan ikatan pertunangan. Ramai yg terputus di fasa ini kerana terlalu lama berhubungan sehingga lelaki menjadi bosan. LELAKI ye. Kenapa lelaki ? Kerana lelaki mmg mudah bosan berbanding wanita yg terlebih setia sehingga dia sanggup berkorban hati & perasaan dan akhirnya bunuh diri. Haha. Dan mana yg berjaya akan .. tahniah lah. Haha. And sebelum kahwin purpose lah perempuan tu dulu. Bagi la dia ingat kenangan mcm mana korang boleh sampai ke perkahwinan yg sememangnya bahagia ini. If aku, bakal suami aku nak purpose aku nak mcm ni

Tepi pantai woii. Cuba imagine kalau dia buat kita merajuk n kita bawak diri kat tepi pantai then tetiba dia buat kejutan mcm ni. Mau nangis senyum 40 hari 45 malam weh. Haha. Takpun letak lah cincin dalam coklat ke aiskrim ke aahhh ikut korang lah. Ni apa yg aku nak. Tak suka sudah. Pi terjun KLCC sana. Then after dia dah accept .. eh before tu korang mestilah dah pergi jumpa mak bapak perempuan tu dulu kan, n bawak perempuan tu jumpa mak bapak korang. Mintak restu. Jgn la bodoh sangat. Haha. Lepas dia dah accept tu tiba lah hari yg ditunggu. Haha. Akad nikah pastikan sekali lafaz ye. Kahkah. And lepas akad nikah tu jadi lah mcm ni

Sweet kan? Sumpah aku teringin gila nak buat mcm ni. Haha. Tapi tolonglah PASTIKAN SENTIASA BERKEKALAN macam ni. Bagi memastikan hubungan tu berpanjangan & berkekalan. If ada salah faham tu jangan lah cepat melenting. Yang suami pon jangan lah asyik nak tinggi suara je bila isteri buat salah. Pastu lempang terajang bunuh semua. Dehell ! Isteri kau tu dohh. Baik tak payah kahwin kalau kau nak menganjing. Rendahkan EGO & PANAS BARAN tu. Demi isteri tercinta. Tak salahkan berkorban sikit perasaan ego tu dengan isteri sendiri. Dah hidup sebumbung tidur sekatil sebantal. Chill lah takpayah nak ego sangat.

Ini contoh laki bini gaduh. Tapi ni bodoh lah. Kalau aku takdenye nak perang mulut mcm ni. Tahan jela weh. Senyap je. Biar laki kita luahkan apa yg dia tak puas hati. Memang lah seksa tapi suami sendiri kan. Sabar jelahh. Tapi okay lagi if gaduh mcm ni je. Jangan sampai bunuh sudah lah. Nauzubillah. Taknak aku letak gambar. Seram dohh tengok tadi >< If ada masalah,salah faham,tak puas hati cakap. Bincang elok-2. Setiap masalah ada penyelesaian. If dah tak boleh sangat terpaksa lah bawak kepada perkara yg harus dan sah tetapi DIBENCI ALLAH iatu PENCERAIAN. Tapi tolonglah jangan sampai mcm tu. Cerai tu seksa weh. Kau bayangkan clash pon orang dah nak gila bagai. Ini cerai. Tak dapat aku bayang weh. Nauzubillahiminzalik. Dan kepada suami yg ingin poligami .. aku taktau lah. Korang ni cepat sangat bosan pehal ? Cuba lah fikir bini kau yg setia,selalu bagi kasih sayang,tak pernah jemu dengan kau segala bagai. Haihh. Tak ada perempuan yg sanggup berkongsi kasih. If ada pun dia .. aku taktau lah. Yg aku tau aku memang taknak. Nauzubillah. Weh couple pon orang taknak kena pasang, ni kahwin. Bodoh tahap maksima kuasa 100 boboiboy apa ? Haha.

Sweet kan? Kalau aku merajuk bawak diri kat mana-2 then laki aku datang dari belakang pastu hug & kiss aku mcm ni kan best. Haha. And dalam setiap perkahwinan menginginkan cahaya mata.

Anak aku ni. Haha. Tak kira lah anak aku comel ke tak yg penting anak. And halal :)

Woman was made from the rib of man, she was not created from his head or top of him, not from his feet to be stepped upon, she was made from his side to be close to him, from beneath his arm to be protected by him and near his heart to be loved by him. :)